But maybe I have to tell you
now already that
these pressures of ignorance and subjection
will only get worse.
You will gradually feel your control
over the environment slip away,
but this is just an impression
since it is really your view
on the world
that is enlarging.
Adding years to your age
expands your mind and thoughts.
And you start to realize
that there are actually
only very little things in the world
that you can deeply
understand.
The only thing you have any power over,
if you are born so lucky,
are your own actions.
Your emotions and even your opinions
are mere slaves of circumstance.
They just drift along
helplessly.
This is of the essence in meditation.
Mastering your behaviour
through activity or inactivity,
to the extent that,
over the years, many years for most,
you feel that you can eventually
channel and steer your emotions.
There lies a first step
in the practice of ‘letting go’.
Your goal should be to let go of your emotions
which are mainly reactions to outside sensory impulses,
to aspects of life and death
far beyond your control.
I have, and still am,
experiencing this as a profound
and life shattering difficulty.
You can try to outwit and postpone
but you will not succeed in eluding
the reality of having to construe
something inside your self
that belongs and is understood
only by you.
now already that
these pressures of ignorance and subjection
will only get worse.
You will gradually feel your control
over the environment slip away,
but this is just an impression
since it is really your view
on the world
that is enlarging.
Adding years to your age
expands your mind and thoughts.
And you start to realize
that there are actually
only very little things in the world
that you can deeply
understand.
The only thing you have any power over,
if you are born so lucky,
are your own actions.
Your emotions and even your opinions
are mere slaves of circumstance.
They just drift along
helplessly.
This is of the essence in meditation.
Mastering your behaviour
through activity or inactivity,
to the extent that,
over the years, many years for most,
you feel that you can eventually
channel and steer your emotions.
There lies a first step
in the practice of ‘letting go’.
Your goal should be to let go of your emotions
which are mainly reactions to outside sensory impulses,
to aspects of life and death
far beyond your control.
I have, and still am,
experiencing this as a profound
and life shattering difficulty.
You can try to outwit and postpone
but you will not succeed in eluding
the reality of having to construe
something inside your self
that belongs and is understood
only by you.