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For Candy, family and friends


Today a most formidable man
passed away.
The most formidable. 

Why is everything 
so merciless?
Why are we endowed with
such tremendous capacity 
for grief?
Why are the most ecstatic feelings 
so deeply intertwined with 
heartbreak?
How can one man 
be this important?
To so many.
To you.
And to someone 
as barren as me. 

If I add up the total amount 
of hours
that we actually spent together 
I will hardly get to 20. 
But from the first instant 
I knew. 
And the next hours 
only confirmed it. 
I had been touched 
by an energy beyond the range of others.
One of those very few people 
in a generation 
capable of transcending 
the barriers 
the prejudice 
the pettiness 
of us humans. 

Someone you instantly trust 
with your life.
Someone you instantly share 
your weakness with 
knowing you will not be betrayed. 
Someone who captures 
the essence of life, love and togetherness
better than most. 
Someone that has felt 
the way we are all connected 
and interdependent 
for his entire life. 
To whom it was the most natural 
of feelings. 
Who could make 
and help you 
forgive yourself. 
And make you feel like 
you truly want to change 
the somber thoughts you carry.

You have loosened the roots 
of my bitterness. 
And have given me the strength 
to pull them. 
One day at a time. 
But steadfast. 

What stronger beacon 
can anyone wish for?
But the one that emanates 
from the heart and soul of a laughter 
like yours. 

I will miss the hugs from a man 
that had enough love to inspire us all. 
To bring us closer together. 
And to show us a true spirituality 
that is only seen in those that understand 
the underlying balance.
Far, far greater than any word or gesture 
or life. 

We are all eternal 
but some lead the way. 

It's great to see you, Terry. 
Without the delay of time zones. 
Without the distance of continents. 
Without any obstacles.